Musings of a Bored Librarian

I can't listen to music at work anymore...so let's just say that it leaves a lot of time for pondering...these are my thoughts.

June 10, 2009

I was just contemplating a certain movie recently. Maybe you have seen it? It is called X-Men Origins: Wolverine. I just realized that poor Wolverine has bad luck with women! And watching this movie made me think of the other X-Men movies. I found a certain series of events that started in the second movie to be very entertaining. To those who haven't seen these movies, you might want to pass on reading this, because this is your only "Spoiler Alert."

In X2: X-Men United, there is a conversation between Jean Grey and Wolverine that goes a little something like this:

Jean Grey: "Girls flirt with the dangerous guy, Logan. They don't take him home. They marry the good guy."
Wolverine: "I could be the good guy."
Jean Grey: "The good guy sticks around."

Well, while I was...(let's just call it "working"), I was wondering if this was true or not. I am going to forego all of the evidence that some girls do in fact have a thing for the "Bad Boy." However, fast-forward to the resolution of these "Days of Our Mutant Lives" in the third X-Men Movie (X-Men: The Last Stand). Jean Gray, (the same girl who was so wise with her previous comment), later kills the good guy, and in turn gets killed by the dangerous guy. Huh....interesting.

June 12, 2009

I finished reading a book by Steve Martin called "The Pleasure of My Company." I actually enjoyed his writing style (minus several questionable parts). But there are a couple of quotes that I LOVED! The main character, neurotic Daniel Pecan Cambridge, discusses charisma:

"Wouldn't we all like to know the extent of our own magnetism?...But my charisma has yet to fully bloom. It's as though something is keeping me back from it. Perhaps fear: What would happen to me and to those around me if my power became uncontained? If I were suddenly just too sensational to be managed? Maybe my obsessions are there to keep me from being too powerfully alluring, to keep my would-be lovers and adventures in check."

Another major theme in the book is that of the "quiet heart."

"...In the deeper hours of the night I began to look at myself, to consider myself and my condition, to measure the life I'd led so far. I did not know what made me this way. I did not know of any other way I could be. I did not know what was inside me or how I could redeem what was hidden there. There must be a key or person or thing, or song or poem or belief, or old saw that could access it, but they all seemed so far away, and after I drifted further and further into self-absorption, I closed the evening with this desolate thought: There are few takers for the quiet heart."

Don't worry, he finishes off the book by giving evidences of the many "takers of the quiet heart." Fortunate for those such as myself!

June 23, 2009

As I shift the books, my mind shifts as well. I was stuck in the "Relationship" section (oddly enough between "Religion" and "Politics") for quite a while the last couple of weeks and, of course, it got me thinking.I think that we all fantasize about our wedding day from the time of our first "Happily Ever After" story in our childhood. I have witnessed several different version of supposed "Happily Ever After" beginnings (AKA: Weddings) and I think that people are definitely being misled. Now, I am not saying that I am cynical about the concept of "marriage," so much as the concept of "wedding". Believe you me, I am CRAVING the opportunity to be married. Even if the mere thought of it creates a mixed sense of hope, fear, dread, and simple disbelief that it would/will happen. I do, however, find that most of the examples in my realm of experience are not the best. For instance: Out of the 13 marriages in my family ("Wait, you only have 10 siblings" you say...that is correct...stew over that for a while)---5 of those were elopements, and we have had 5 divorces (not all from the elopers). A positive spin could be that since half of all marriages have already ended in my family, the odds should be in my favor. You might say that I am a little apprehensive to try to make this a selling point to the poor sap that falls for me. He will automatically be canonized, I am sure. =D

But, back to weddings. Yes, most little girls dream of the big wedding with all of the trimmings. Once upon a time----maybe, but anymore eloping sounds like a pretty good idea. I would love to get sealed in the Laie Hawai'i temple. Not all of my family can go to Hawai'i, and not very many are active members, so not very many of my family members will be able to be at my wedding anyway.

Receptions are a WHOLE other topic of discussion. I have recently been a bridesmaid, and I would never want to wish that on my worst enemies. I can think of a couple fun things about receptions: gifts, cake, bouquet toss, and family. But it is kind of hard to do that when you have got tons and tons of "well-wishers" vying for your attention. They last so long anyway! The poor couple just wants to get on with the rest of their lives but have to perform for everyone that they do, or in most cases, don’t even know! I think that it is more important to plan the marriage and not the wedding. Don’t get me wrong, I would have a big wedding with all the people and all the trimmings if the provisions were available to me. But if I were given the choice of having a honeymoon, or a $400 cake…I would choose the honeymoon. My being the youngest, and last person in my family to be married (the nieces and nephews are even passing me on the way to the altar) makes it very difficult to make a decision as to how my pre-marriage ceremony will go. I feel both obligated and due for a celebration at the same time of not really wanting to go through all of the stress and expense of a wedding.

June 24, 2009

I like numbers and patterns of numbers. For instance: my brother is 2 years, 2 months, and 22 days older than I am....it was probably my idea in the pre-earth life. I have thought about the perfect day to get married....I know, I know...not gonna happen for a while, but just bear with me. If I were to get married 4/24/2010, I would still be 24 years old (for four more days). If you add 4 and the 2 and 4 you get 10 which is the year. This would also be on a Saturday. Or, if I got married 6/24/2010, there are a couple different patterns. The 24th of June is on a Thursday, sadly. If you add 2 and 4, that makes 6, such as the month. Or, if you multiply the 2 and 4 together, than the pattern would be 6, 8, 10....Come to think of it, I could get married 6/8/2010, but that is on a Tuesday. Poor guy I end up with. Hopefully I meet him soon and we hit it off well, because I would have to wait until another even year.

August 2, 2009

I find it sad when Facebook quizzes ruefully define your life. You take them hoping for a good outcome; only post the ones that you want people to see; delete the others...and yet, you still take them. Why?